Show me the roses that grow among the thorns,
Painting the beauty that comes in many forms,
Showing me the good in life that overcomes the pricks,
Revealing the hope throughout the rugged sticks.
Show me the roses that grow through any storm,
Cherishing the drench, whether freezing or warm,
Showing me the joy in life that overcomes the pain,
Teaching me to dance beneath torrential rain.
The thorns feel most severe when reaching for a rose,
Cutting deep, showing flaws, and leaving us to foes.
But as we grasp, we cry out, and find that by our call
We find Jesus, the finest rose of all.
There are various posts in the works, but I suppose there isn’t much said (or anything said for that matter) that’s… “real.”
So… here I am being real!
Oops, sorry. That still wasn’t “real.” But I thought you would enjoy that anyway.
It never ceases to amaze me how God has wired us as humans to be able to change. The brain, the body, and everything involved has the capability to learn new habits. And all too often we sell ourselves short because “we can’t do something.” Well, okay, maybe you can’t! But have you tried? Failed? Well, try again! Then try again! And again! How do you suppose sanctification is supposed to work?!
Listen. Psalm 103:14, “For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.” God understands when we fail (to an extent because sometimes we’re just plain stupid). Proverbs 24:16, “For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief.”
This semester God has been “rewiring me” so to speak. I prayed, “God, change me” and God quickly stuck His hand into the details of my life and basically was like, “So… you realize that isn’t what I would consider excellent, right?” To be frank, I have failed 100 times. And ironically enough, I’ll fail 100 more times! The best part is: that’s okay. It is the grandest privilege in the universe to try, fail, repeat the process 100 times, and still have an all-knowing God love me the same amount either way!
I’m studying for a final right now, but I thought I would take a moment to post something. It’s too bad there isn’t time to delve into tons of detail. That would be nice…
God, my dreams are wholly Yours.
My future is not mine.
My hopes and fears with all my tears
Are Yours as well, not mine.
God, my laugh is wholly Yours.
My smile is not my own.
My teeth and tongue, while I’m still young
Are Yours and not my own.
God, my past is wholly Yours:
My jumps and falls and more.
My highs and lows with the hard blows
Are Yours then much more.
God, it’s true this world is Yours.
My world is Yours as well.
My past, my now, my fate, and brow
Are Yours, so all is well.
Teach me how to simplify.
Teach me how to live.
Teach me how to just slow down.
Teach me how to give.
Teach me how to love the lights.
Teach me how to rest.
Teach me how to take my time.
Teach me how to bless.
These guys were the halftime show of my college’s annual Turkey Bowl Soccer Championship, which my collegian (The Spartans) was playing in. Loved their mad skills and amazing hearts for God!
It’s on my agenda to write the detailed story of how God has been working in my heart, but for the time being, classes are hitting me hard and there are other writing projects in the works.
Until then, I shall state the bottom line:
God is leading me to the foreign mission field and I have been accepted as Graduate Assistant into PCC’s Masters of Divinity program.
God is so good, guys! SO good… I’ll explain later in more vivid detail. 😉
My submission for PCC’s Annual Thanksgiving Praise Service:
(It was very humbling to have it selected and read for the Church body)
Thankful for all the trials,
Heartaches, pain, and woe,
And the grace of God above
Never running low,
Keeping me on my knees,
Showing me His love,
Giving me what I need
In trials from above,
Violently pursuing me,
Insisting that I see
Nails can be the greatest gift,
Granting Christ’s likeness to me.
I can’t believe that after all this time, this song never made it on to The Travelers Overflow.
This personal project was an overflow of God’s work in my life then and does not cease to reflect God’s working in my life now. Praise God for His love and omniscience!
To fully appreciate the art below, please refer back to this post:
The Genesis of a Warrior Poet
A bunch of studio art majors at my college recently invited me to hold some poses for them to sketch. It was an incredible experience. My friend, Jess Hodgson of Clamfrog Studios, drew these.
Consider these drawings a piece of who I am, who I used to be, and who God is building me to be: